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I can't sleep, and feel there's a bit of things I need to get off my chest. I met a girl at a party in early September, whom I ended up hitting it off with that night. However, I initially dismissed her as a one-time drunken encounter who I would never speak to or see again. Part of me wanted to continue talking to her, to see where things would go, but I let fear hold me back.
I was fortunate enough for a second chance. We once again met at a party not too long after the first one, and were pretty much glued together for the entire night. With a little self-motivation, and pushes from my friends, I chatted her up on Facebook a few days later to see where things would go.
All I can say is I've never been able to talk to a girl more easily in my entire life. Right from the beginning, we would talk from hours on end almost every single night, something we still do to this day. She's someone I can easily have fun with, which I find surprising given how different we are. Since I built up the courage to talk to her, we've gone on numerous dates, as well as gathered with groups of friends together. I'm not yet ready to call it love for a few reasons, but I can say with certainty that I have very strong feelings towards her.
She's older than me by a year, (20/19) and has never once been in a relationship, or had anything serious with a guy. As a result, I've been having to take things very slow with her, which I don't mind. At this point, she openly admits that she has feelings for me, she's cuddly, willing to hold my hand / kiss me in public or in privacy, and we've slept in the same bed numerous times, but says she doesn't want to put an 'official' label on it just yet. (This is what she said when I asked her what we were to each other maybe three weeks from now.) However, when my friends refer to her as my 'girlfriend' or refer to us as 'in a relationship', she doesn't seem to mind, nor does she deny it. Perhaps because she doesn't want to embarrass me, who knows.
I've always had bad anxiety when it comes to girls. No matter how many signals I get, I'll still have a hard time believing that the girl I'm involved with, or any girl I have been with in the past, is or was attracted to me. I don't know whether to call this a self-esteem issue or not, as I'm for the most part incredibly confident in other aspects of my life.
There's something unique about this girl, however. Recently, maybe for about a month, a month and a half maximum, I've been having dreams about her, and not good ones either. They usually happen the day before, or the night after I see her, or even at times while I'm sleeping in the same bed as her. Occasionally, but not often, they'll happen on random nights as well.
These dreams always depict her and I in a different situation. In these dreams, something always goes wrong, and she ends up leaving me, never wanting to see me again, etc, it varies. Now I don't necessarily believe in dreams foretelling events to come, what concerns me is the frequency of them. It's safe to say I have them at least once a week, sometimes twice in the same night. I'm left curious as to what they could mean.
Now, for the distance part. Let's say there's Town A, Town B, and Town C. Town A and Town B are right beside each other, easily accessible. People from Town A and Town B can easily see each other on a regular basis should they choose to do so. I live in Town A, this girl lives in Town B. We're maybe a 20 minute drive apart, give or take a few minutes. We can also reach each other through public transit quite easily should we need to.
This girl has been in Town B, living with her parents as a result of a co-op she's doing for her school program. However, semester two is rolling around, and she'll be going back to Town C until April/May, where her University is. Town C is about an hour drive away, an hour and a half if using public transit.
I've had distance ruin things for me before in the past, and I have friends who tell me that distance can never work. I like to have hope, seeing as an hour isn't really that far away at all. We both have Friday's off in the coming semester. That leaves Thursday, Friday, and Saturday nights for us to spend together. (She's told me I'm welcome to stay overnight in her apartment, and she's also welcome at my place, should she come down to see me.) Between travel expenses, and my own school / part-time job, it's safe to say I'll probably see her once a week, should the circumstances permit.
We've already established that I'm coming to visit her. My concern is that I don't know if 'visit' means a one time thing to her, or a reoccurring thing. I plan to talk to her about it within the next few days.
I suppose the question I have to ask is, should I continue pursuing this girl? Or am I just setting myself up for failure? I'd really rather not deal with a heartbreak later down the road, especially over something like distance, but on the other hand, I would really love to be with this girl, and continue seeing her. So, advice forum, my question is; do you think that this can work, given the circumstances and the back story? Or am I wasting my time? (Anyone who's able to give me advice on the dreams I've been having would also be much appreciated.)
TL;DR: Hit it off with a girl a few months ago, we're into each other, she's moving about an hour away for University in a few days. Can we make it work, or am I wasting my time?