So I moved into college yesterday and yesterday and today have been some basic safety classes, diversity seminars, actual classes start tomorrow.
But I'm just not feeling all of this. I'm feeling oddly lonely, sad, and closed off.
And its not like I've been hiding in my room. I've talked to people at some of the pre-class stuff, I've made it a point to meet people at meals, I know some of my floor mates, etc.
But I can't shake this "Meh" feeling.
I know some of it is obviously homesickness, I do miss my room and my folks (Not that I haven't spent time away from them but the idea that I won't see them for months brings out these feelings). But I know that's normal and I text my mother pretty normally.
I also keep in contact with my High School friends, texting them and talking to them on steam.
But I can't help but feel lonely, Like I'm a reject. (Which I know isn't true).
And the few people I got to know a bit here during the summer orientation are in the other dorm a half mile through the city.
I think part of it might be my roommate, He's a a nice guy and all but he came in and already knew people from his orientation and already spends a lot of his day out of the dorm room. I've met his kind before and I'm used to him, but being his roommate makes me feel oddly like I'm a total loser in comparison.
This all adds up and makes me feel oddly sad and lonely, worse than I think I've ever felt actually. The fact that I said goodbye to my grandfather for probably the last time ever before I left and having no anchors at all here probably doesn't help things.
So I guess I'm asking how do I deal with this?
There aren't many Orientation things per say Except for Karaoke last night, which I only went to briefly because it was freaking boring, and a comedian tonight which I'll go see but it's not exactly a "meet and greet" sort of thing to see a comedian.
I don't know, I feel overwhelmed, friendless, confused, and anxious all at once for the first time in my life. I don't have a friend to go see to get my mind off things and I haven't made a good group of friends like I did at summer orientation or like my roommate has.
Any advice at all?
Second day at college, met people but haven't made any friends that I can hang out with, not particularly anti-social but I am sort of shy (though normally I don't have a problem), miss home, miss my friends, miss my job, my roommate is on the path to be one of the most popular guys at school and I just feel lost, confused and sad through it all.